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Your bff in Christ,
The D
"Don’t stare at me, baby. You can see me in the movies" Rita Hayworth
Showing posts with label miss havisham. Show all posts
Showing posts with label miss havisham. Show all posts
6/28/13
3/14/13
the "boyfriend"
we met last week & you told everyone that you loved me.i cried while you smoked meth.i never heard from you again. i called you last night with no answer. today you almost ran me over in hollywood.is this life?
2/20/13
the dallas show!
i have had a looong vacation from the small screen.it was fun, but now it is time to make some $$$$ while fucking shit up.i have been talking with various producers about my own show.it will be pretty cool, but it will also take a while because i want it to be perfect.
i will be asking various old friends from various shows you love(rock of love, tila tequila, flavor of love,etc) to costar with me. d'you see how good a friend i am? i could easily do this alone, MY show about ME, but it will be an ensemble even though no one has lifted a finger to help me.i could play the martyr but i choose to move forward instead. none of this will be overnight but i just wanted everyone to know what i was doing right now.
i have had pretty positive feedback from the producers & am very excited about what is to come.
i will be asking various old friends from various shows you love(rock of love, tila tequila, flavor of love,etc) to costar with me. d'you see how good a friend i am? i could easily do this alone, MY show about ME, but it will be an ensemble even though no one has lifted a finger to help me.i could play the martyr but i choose to move forward instead. none of this will be overnight but i just wanted everyone to know what i was doing right now.
i have had pretty positive feedback from the producers & am very excited about what is to come.
2/13/13
12/26/12
aldous snow
now i realize that it was because he looked just like my crush, david lochary.funny how life is.it really had nothing to do with aldous as a person & more to do with the fact that i wanted to fuck david.lol. so i guess he really has nothing to feel special about. of course, i never debased myself with aldous(praise be to allah). i wouldve loved to close my eyes & dream of mr lochary.oh well.
12/3/12
young adult
so i am finally watching diablo cody's "young adult" with charlize theron playing ugly on the inside.it's actually pretty funny and patton oswalt should have gotten an oscar nod fer sure.not through yet, so i cannot give a thorough review but i will say 2 thumbs up for now. mavis reminds me a lot of myself which is sad yet funny at the same time....
in talks with producers about a new reality show.cannot say much yet but it's like a rhoa rip off.should be interesting. of course, i am "saving myself" for something worth my time.just turned down the myspace reality show yesterday(good luck with that, myspace!lol).i just don't have time for stupid shit. pay me what i'm worth or gtfo. for reals. i can stay at home & make $$$$, why would i waste time on a shitty reality show when i dont have to?i am not desperate, not starving, not an attention whore like some people. i'd rather make $20 at home than $200 on set & having to deal with assholes. anyhoo, rant over.i am exhausted & tomorrow is a big day for me(YAY,ME!). goodnight
your bff in christ,
the d
ps: that patrick wilson is such a hottie. i would bang him SO HARD!!!!!!!! lmfao. i refuse to watch that tv show of his but other than that: yum.
in talks with producers about a new reality show.cannot say much yet but it's like a rhoa rip off.should be interesting. of course, i am "saving myself" for something worth my time.just turned down the myspace reality show yesterday(good luck with that, myspace!lol).i just don't have time for stupid shit. pay me what i'm worth or gtfo. for reals. i can stay at home & make $$$$, why would i waste time on a shitty reality show when i dont have to?i am not desperate, not starving, not an attention whore like some people. i'd rather make $20 at home than $200 on set & having to deal with assholes. anyhoo, rant over.i am exhausted & tomorrow is a big day for me(YAY,ME!). goodnight
your bff in christ,
the d
ps: that patrick wilson is such a hottie. i would bang him SO HARD!!!!!!!! lmfao. i refuse to watch that tv show of his but other than that: yum.
10/17/12
los angeles fashion week :-(
ok, so i used to love la fashion week.i would wait all year round for it & plan my outfits like crazy.it was my reason for being.
now.....
not so much
we are in the middle(?) of fashion week & i am all "whatevs". the shows have been great, dont get me wrong , but the planning/execution is TERRIBLE!!!! oh how i miss mercedes benz/smashbox fashion week.
eh
back in MY day(lol) people like me did not have to wait in line for an hour waiting to be let in while watching others cut the line. back in MY day gift bags were for vips, not whoever was first upstairs.
:-(
so disappointed but at least there have been no swimsuit,tee shirt, or lingerie fashion shows(thank the lord). tonight i will listen to led zepplin, try to absorb all this cheap champagne from the show, & remember the good old days.this would be the perfect time to insert my acid washed dress picture @ the last official la fashion week but, alas i am too drunk and/or lazy.
just some food for thought
your bff in christ,
the d
ps: the world of wonder reality tv show will not be happening because the casting director hates me.lol
pps:i see they are iso seatfiller for the jody watley/jon secada muscial "Loving the Silent
Tears". how incredibly sad! they cant even GIVE those tickets away....
now.....
not so much
we are in the middle(?) of fashion week & i am all "whatevs". the shows have been great, dont get me wrong , but the planning/execution is TERRIBLE!!!! oh how i miss mercedes benz/smashbox fashion week.
eh
back in MY day(lol) people like me did not have to wait in line for an hour waiting to be let in while watching others cut the line. back in MY day gift bags were for vips, not whoever was first upstairs.
:-(
so disappointed but at least there have been no swimsuit,tee shirt, or lingerie fashion shows(thank the lord). tonight i will listen to led zepplin, try to absorb all this cheap champagne from the show, & remember the good old days.this would be the perfect time to insert my acid washed dress picture @ the last official la fashion week but, alas i am too drunk and/or lazy.
just some food for thought
your bff in christ,
the d
ps: the world of wonder reality tv show will not be happening because the casting director hates me.lol
pps:i see they are iso seatfiller for the jody watley/jon secada muscial "Loving the Silent
Tears". how incredibly sad! they cant even GIVE those tickets away....
10/10/12
tonight, tonight
spent tonight listening to the raveonettes play acoustically.pretty cool & sharon is so cute. made a fool of myself with sune & a friend embarrassed me in front of nic harcourt(which is pretty hard because i NEVER get embarrassed). :-(
i should be asleep now but i am so wired!
:-( :-( :-(
i must wake up really early.
anyhoo, so men are weird(though predictable). i was with a man who loves me but knows that i will never ever have sex with him.he gets sort of pissy & tries to cockblock when i am around men that i would actually date.very sad stuff & so middle school.he is damn near 40 & still playing games.i really need a boyfriend,my last relationship was with elvis & we all know that was 700 years ago. i am not desperate, no craigslist nsa ads being planned but celibacy is getting old.
i went to the party & i felt so out of place(i usually am but this time that i actually FELT it). was introduced to the girl from "argo"(notice how i cant be bothered with googling or remembering her name).she was cute but i was not impressed. she was humble(fake? "hollywood humble"? idk).i could not be that.just not in me.she was dressed like an "in living color" reject, i felt sorry for her like i do most hipsters.
still talking to world of wonder about the new reality show.just another pain in my ass.
doctors say that my cancer might be back(yay?)
i should be asleep now but i am so wired!
:-( :-( :-(
i must wake up really early.
anyhoo, so men are weird(though predictable). i was with a man who loves me but knows that i will never ever have sex with him.he gets sort of pissy & tries to cockblock when i am around men that i would actually date.very sad stuff & so middle school.he is damn near 40 & still playing games.i really need a boyfriend,my last relationship was with elvis & we all know that was 700 years ago. i am not desperate, no craigslist nsa ads being planned but celibacy is getting old.
i went to the party & i felt so out of place(i usually am but this time that i actually FELT it). was introduced to the girl from "argo"(notice how i cant be bothered with googling or remembering her name).she was cute but i was not impressed. she was humble(fake? "hollywood humble"? idk).i could not be that.just not in me.she was dressed like an "in living color" reject, i felt sorry for her like i do most hipsters.
still talking to world of wonder about the new reality show.just another pain in my ass.
doctors say that my cancer might be back(yay?)
8/25/12
aha!
something really amazing has just happened to me.unfortunately i cannot say more.let's just say that all my dreams will be coming true sometime soon. this month/year has been soooooooooooooooo bad(not the worst, but still pretty terrible).i always kept the faith.i always believed. & then it happened. fucking unbelievable.
why did it happen?
because i am pretty?no
because i am "famous"?no
it is because i am smart enough to never give up
it happened because i never let other people determine my worth(or even future worth)
it is very late & i have to pretend to sleep now(in dallas speak that means watch netflix for another 2 hours). tomorrow i will be going to the mad decent block party & be surrounded by hipsters & white girls dressed as pocohontas(yuck).
why did it happen?
because i am pretty?no
because i am "famous"?no
it is because i am smart enough to never give up
it happened because i never let other people determine my worth(or even future worth)
it is very late & i have to pretend to sleep now(in dallas speak that means watch netflix for another 2 hours). tomorrow i will be going to the mad decent block party & be surrounded by hipsters & white girls dressed as pocohontas(yuck).
4/29/12
miasma
life is very complicated right now & i probably will not be posting as much fuckery as i used to.
sort of had a love at first sight thing with a guy lately & i could not quite figure out why. yes was cute but not the most handsome guy i had ever seen.then it hit me, the guy looks just like my ex Elvis. :-( now i dont even know if i want to go there. it's like he will shadow everything that we do together.i dont want elvis to determine how i feel about this new man.
i've been skipping a lot of parties recently. am i getting old?lol. i dont even feel like putting on inappropriate evening wear(so you KNOW something is wrong).i am changing & i dont think i like what i am changing into. i used to funnel all of this into my diary but now that is what i use this blog for. i feel like it is time to go old school, get back to pen & paper. i am not abandoning "glitter of hollywood" but it really serves no purpose & i am not one to waste time. this isnt a goodbye, more of a "smell you later".
your bff in christ,
the d
sort of had a love at first sight thing with a guy lately & i could not quite figure out why. yes was cute but not the most handsome guy i had ever seen.then it hit me, the guy looks just like my ex Elvis. :-( now i dont even know if i want to go there. it's like he will shadow everything that we do together.i dont want elvis to determine how i feel about this new man.
i've been skipping a lot of parties recently. am i getting old?lol. i dont even feel like putting on inappropriate evening wear(so you KNOW something is wrong).i am changing & i dont think i like what i am changing into. i used to funnel all of this into my diary but now that is what i use this blog for. i feel like it is time to go old school, get back to pen & paper. i am not abandoning "glitter of hollywood" but it really serves no purpose & i am not one to waste time. this isnt a goodbye, more of a "smell you later".
your bff in christ,
the d
4/11/12
this has gone TOO far, i tell you!
at first i was upset, but now i am LIVID
why is she doing this to meeeeeeee? isnt having daddy buy you a record deal & being a horrible faux hipster singer enough? :-(
i need a nap now.
3/7/12
love vs lust
i just realized something important today.i finally figured out the difference between love & lust. so many times i thought i was in love(M, jr,aldous,etc) but now i see that it was only my vagina talking. i loved/love elvis.he is probably the only one i have ever loved.it's good to get that off my chest for some reason.
oh & btw,M i will be calling you in about 2 weeks & aldous please forget my number. i know you read my blog like it was the bible.its flattering but i cannot with you. :-)
i feel so mature now.calm. ready to move on from all of this nonsense.i opened a magazine & there was elvis staring back. it hurt for a second & then i laughed.
oh & btw,M i will be calling you in about 2 weeks & aldous please forget my number. i know you read my blog like it was the bible.its flattering but i cannot with you. :-)
i feel so mature now.calm. ready to move on from all of this nonsense.i opened a magazine & there was elvis staring back. it hurt for a second & then i laughed.
2/14/12
happy valentine's day!
i am celebrating valentine's day by going to get some xrays. my doctor says that my cancer might be back :-(
did a little audrey hepburn realness yesterday with a 1960s coat & black velvet pants. saw an ex but couldnt remember his name so i ignored him, then came back home to watch "charade".
so it stars miss hepburn & cary grant(yum yum), its full of action & lots of twists, spies, plus murder. the costumes were gorgeous & made by givenchy. i should have liked it but i hated that in some scenes cary had to be the bad guy. cary grant is too gorgeous & funny to be evil. ever. just pissed me off.lol
totally forgot that i had an invitation to drake's grammy party @ the playboy mansion.....eh
did a little audrey hepburn realness yesterday with a 1960s coat & black velvet pants. saw an ex but couldnt remember his name so i ignored him, then came back home to watch "charade".
so it stars miss hepburn & cary grant(yum yum), its full of action & lots of twists, spies, plus murder. the costumes were gorgeous & made by givenchy. i should have liked it but i hated that in some scenes cary had to be the bad guy. cary grant is too gorgeous & funny to be evil. ever. just pissed me off.lol
totally forgot that i had an invitation to drake's grammy party @ the playboy mansion.....eh
1/26/12
poll: land of oz
a millionaire has asked me to visit him in australia. i am flattered, of course, interested in him but idk about australia. seems so 3rd world :-(. i dont even go to the valley 'cause it reminds me of mexico.lol. what do you think?
1/5/12
3rd degree burn
i got an email on a dating website from a man which was pretty rude. something about since i was named Dallas that i filmed in the valley(ie i was a pornstar), etc.i wont go into details but my reply was a 3rd degree burn. so much so that even HE had to admit i scorched his ass.
i just do not understand people. no need for so much ignorance & why all the hate? he was a good looking guy & if he'd have a change of attitude would not even need to be online iso someone to love him. oh well. he will never learn & will soon be an old, bitter man.
i just do not understand people. no need for so much ignorance & why all the hate? he was a good looking guy & if he'd have a change of attitude would not even need to be online iso someone to love him. oh well. he will never learn & will soon be an old, bitter man.
12/23/11
idk
today just seems like it will be boring :-(
eh
so i am friends with an 80 year old man who works at {blank}. i go there to talk to him, he is very sweet, has amazing stories & always talks about his wife(who died in 1985).i go there & he says he will give me $100 to fuck him.i told him that if i were a prostitute my price would be closer to $100 million than 100 dollars. now mind you, i was not offended. yes, it is rude but i assume that he says that to every woman under 30. of course, i could get him fired from his job & kicked out of his house(his company owns his apt) but i am not that sort of girl(something he should be very thankful about). it really proves that you do not know who you are dealing with & it is always best to be above board in everything that you do.
i feel sorry for the old man, i know that he is lonely but not sorry enough to have sex with him.
reminds me of the time that legendary rockstar offered me $100(yes you had his poster on your wall in middle school).i told him that had he kept his mouth shut, i wouldve done it for free.
eh
so i am friends with an 80 year old man who works at {blank}. i go there to talk to him, he is very sweet, has amazing stories & always talks about his wife(who died in 1985).i go there & he says he will give me $100 to fuck him.i told him that if i were a prostitute my price would be closer to $100 million than 100 dollars. now mind you, i was not offended. yes, it is rude but i assume that he says that to every woman under 30. of course, i could get him fired from his job & kicked out of his house(his company owns his apt) but i am not that sort of girl(something he should be very thankful about). it really proves that you do not know who you are dealing with & it is always best to be above board in everything that you do.
i feel sorry for the old man, i know that he is lonely but not sorry enough to have sex with him.
reminds me of the time that legendary rockstar offered me $100(yes you had his poster on your wall in middle school).i told him that had he kept his mouth shut, i wouldve done it for free.
12/21/11
11/23/11
what i am thankful for
my thanksgiving day list
1 i have never heard amber rose speak
2 i live in los angeles
3 i am young & beyootyful
4 i still have most of my mind
5 i am strong
6 i have pumpkin pie in the fridge
7 some people love me(& more will later.lol)
1 i have never heard amber rose speak
2 i live in los angeles
3 i am young & beyootyful
4 i still have most of my mind
5 i am strong
6 i have pumpkin pie in the fridge
7 some people love me(& more will later.lol)
11/22/11
me glasses!!!
i am legally blind.i took my glasses off & sat on them.you'd think i would be more careful but, alas i am not. decided that i didnt want to be the doofus in taped glasses at the docs office so i bought some new priscription glasses online. if they turn out cool, i will blog later.....
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