miasma

life is very complicated right now & i probably will not be posting as much fuckery as i used to.

sort of had a love at first sight thing with a guy lately & i could not quite figure out why. yes was cute but not the most handsome guy i had ever seen.then it hit me, the guy looks just like my ex Elvis. :-( now i dont even know if i want to go there. it's like he will shadow everything that we do together.i dont want elvis to determine how i feel about this new man.

 i've been skipping a lot of parties recently. am i getting old?lol. i dont even feel like putting on inappropriate evening wear(so you KNOW something is wrong).i am changing & i dont think i like what i am changing into. i used to funnel all of this into my diary but now that is what i use this blog for. i feel like it is time to go old school, get back to pen & paper. i am not abandoning "glitter of hollywood" but it really serves no purpose & i am not one to waste time. this isnt a goodbye, more of a "smell you later".

 your bff in christ,
 the d