life is very complicated right now & i probably will not be posting as much fuckery as i used to.
sort of had a love at first sight thing with a guy lately & i could not quite figure out why. yes was cute but not the most handsome guy i had ever seen.then it hit me, the guy looks just like my ex Elvis. :-( now i dont even know if i want to go there. it's like he will shadow everything that we do together.i dont want elvis to determine how i feel about this new man.
i've been skipping a lot of parties recently. am i getting old?lol. i dont even feel like putting on inappropriate evening wear(so you KNOW something is wrong).i am changing & i dont think i like what i am changing into. i used to funnel all of this into my diary but now that is what i use this blog for. i feel like it is time to go old school, get back to pen & paper. i am not abandoning "glitter of hollywood" but it really serves no purpose & i am not one to waste time. this isnt a goodbye, more of a "smell you later".
your bff in christ,
the d
"Don’t stare at me, baby. You can see me in the movies" Rita Hayworth
Showing posts with label prozac is one hell of a drug. Show all posts
Showing posts with label prozac is one hell of a drug. Show all posts
4/29/12
11/13/10
11/6/10
damn damn damn
ran into J. Alexander from "America's Next Top Model". pretty sure he quit because he was tired of Tyra's crazy ass....
was invited to the Taylor Momsen party. unfortunately, i could not attend. i was SOOOOO hoping i could punch her in her panda eye, but i guess that will have to wait
was invited to the Taylor Momsen party. unfortunately, i could not attend. i was SOOOOO hoping i could punch her in her panda eye, but i guess that will have to wait
7/12/10
so naughty
been off prozac for a while now(no, my doc did not tell me to).
more people like the "no prozac" Dallas but that is not the reason.very hard to think while on drugs(lol), have not replaced it with anything else(besides vodka). yes, i realize how horrible this all sounds & i do not recommend anyone else to follow in ANY of my footsteps.
decided to extend my "vacation from reality" by going to Sweden or London in the next couple of months.i have been sooooooo focused on Hollywood & not really living. why wait? what will really happen while i am gone?the same things that happen while i'm here?it was always a fear of losing my position in the hierarchy, but now really at a point where i could care less.i need to live. i need to be who i am.spent this whole month being who someone else wanted me to be & my soul is drained.i close my mouth instead of telling the truth.i close my mouth when being made into the victim.i close my mouth when lies are being told about me.
not any more
people who i thought were my friends are just users.my only real friend is my diary(which i have been ignoring).
blahblahblah
my days are filled with vodka/red bull, Nick Flynn books(such a hottie), & my nights are filled with celebrities at boring parties.got an email from a relative i never met, asking when will i come back "home".what is home? it was NEVER in Texas,for sure. ok, now i'm ever boring myself.time to go
Dallas Monroe Harrison
4
"Celebrity Rehab" 2011
more people like the "no prozac" Dallas but that is not the reason.very hard to think while on drugs(lol), have not replaced it with anything else(besides vodka). yes, i realize how horrible this all sounds & i do not recommend anyone else to follow in ANY of my footsteps.
decided to extend my "vacation from reality" by going to Sweden or London in the next couple of months.i have been sooooooo focused on Hollywood & not really living. why wait? what will really happen while i am gone?the same things that happen while i'm here?it was always a fear of losing my position in the hierarchy, but now really at a point where i could care less.i need to live. i need to be who i am.spent this whole month being who someone else wanted me to be & my soul is drained.i close my mouth instead of telling the truth.i close my mouth when being made into the victim.i close my mouth when lies are being told about me.
not any more
people who i thought were my friends are just users.my only real friend is my diary(which i have been ignoring).
blahblahblah
my days are filled with vodka/red bull, Nick Flynn books(such a hottie), & my nights are filled with celebrities at boring parties.got an email from a relative i never met, asking when will i come back "home".what is home? it was NEVER in Texas,for sure. ok, now i'm ever boring myself.time to go
Dallas Monroe Harrison
4
"Celebrity Rehab" 2011
7/6/10
lol
i will be putting up the party pix(eventually).
still terribly busy doing nothing.a good majority of my hair has turned white "quelle catastrophe?"(or something). too sober to write any more.
your bff
the D
still terribly busy doing nothing.a good majority of my hair has turned white "quelle catastrophe?"(or something). too sober to write any more.
your bff
the D
6/21/10
whatevs
someone said that my blog is about sex. well, he is wrong. my blog is about love. then he decided to make fun of the 3 followers(which is something that i do not worry about). i know exactly how many read my blog everyday & it is not 3 people(so there! up your culo!!!!).
trying to get rid of Aldous for good.he is the male version of me, i love him, but love should never be hard.love shouldnt make you unhappy.i've decided to do the whole "read my mind" chick headgame with him(something that i NEVER do). basically i will only see him if he reads my mind & do what i am thinking. if he succeeds good, if he doesnt, even better.i am through. really.
i felt so bad earlier this week while being Dallas.it was a mistake to regret me being me.i caused no harm, although ambition is frowned upon when had by a woman.
trying to get rid of Aldous for good.he is the male version of me, i love him, but love should never be hard.love shouldnt make you unhappy.i've decided to do the whole "read my mind" chick headgame with him(something that i NEVER do). basically i will only see him if he reads my mind & do what i am thinking. if he succeeds good, if he doesnt, even better.i am through. really.
i felt so bad earlier this week while being Dallas.it was a mistake to regret me being me.i caused no harm, although ambition is frowned upon when had by a woman.
5/12/10
high, soooooooo high
just conned my fave MD for some niiiice RX meds. should be mighty high pretty soon(sweeeeet)!
lol
tomorrow is SuperHappyFun Day starting with the "Beautiful People Party" by Paper Mag & ending with me making out with some random blonde(as usual).how i do enjoy the Beautiful People party(& being in Paper Magazine)!
still debating if i should invite exfriends or just make NEW friends while i am there. decisions,decisions!
truly thankful for the meds,though.it's been a rough week(to say the least). i STILL have to go back to the hospital(was there for a week last week & again today). eh
not so fun
still ignoring Aldous(yes, you still suck & i still rock).
big shout outs to my MD Sexie Wexie!!!!
lol
tomorrow is SuperHappyFun Day starting with the "Beautiful People Party" by Paper Mag & ending with me making out with some random blonde(as usual).how i do enjoy the Beautiful People party(& being in Paper Magazine)!
still debating if i should invite exfriends or just make NEW friends while i am there. decisions,decisions!
truly thankful for the meds,though.it's been a rough week(to say the least). i STILL have to go back to the hospital(was there for a week last week & again today). eh
not so fun
still ignoring Aldous(yes, you still suck & i still rock).
big shout outs to my MD Sexie Wexie!!!!
2/6/10
i can has famous, now?
got a little surprise to find that TMZ is following my twitter account. i wonder why? my twitter is not fascinating(no tampon string porn, fake babies, or pix of my plastic tatas). oh well. i guess they know something that i don't......
will TMZ finally make me into the black Paris Hilton? i hope not.i haven't shaved my taint in a while plus i really don't feel like taking it up the ass for anyone who asks.
the long haired blonde guy(the one on the TMZ show) is SMOKING hot, though.i wouldn't mind having some of that for breakfast(,lunch, & dinner).
will TMZ finally make me into the black Paris Hilton? i hope not.i haven't shaved my taint in a while plus i really don't feel like taking it up the ass for anyone who asks.
the long haired blonde guy(the one on the TMZ show) is SMOKING hot, though.i wouldn't mind having some of that for breakfast(,lunch, & dinner).
11/23/09
open up & say ahhhhhhhhhhh
months ago, i was going to give a review of Superhead's....i mean Karrine Steffan's new "book" but , alas, it was a huge waste of my time. the whole time i was reading it, i was giving the book a side eye. plus she kept talking about how women should NOT act like hoes. i was very confused(& obviously so is she)
anyhooo!!!!
i may be leaving Los Angeles for a while. my health is precarious & i really need a break. eh. hard for me to even write.i love LA more than anything in this world. le sigh.
got a snarky email today & thought it is soooooo hilarious how everybody thinks that i owe them something. i don't owe anybody anything (especially people who i changed their shitty diapers while their mom was out eating pussy!!!!). people should be really thankful that i take my meds everyday. life is too short for such immature actions. lmfao
i found a new Kendoll. we'll see how well this one turns out. the last one was a complete waste of my time(though he did buy me 2 Calvin Klein evening dresses).
i like the fact that my blog is mostly about boys. there is nothing more exciting, i think
finally read "My Year of Yes" by Maria Headley. really funny, though Maria sounds like a whooooore....
now reading "The Danish Girl" which will soon be a Nicole Kidman movie. truly bizarre, though i cannot put it down.
tomorrow is a fashion show(whatever). ran into Robert & Roxanne. he was cradling her chins in his hand, trying to protect her from me(as if i cared). i just kept walking. they were never on my radar....
anyhooo!!!!
i may be leaving Los Angeles for a while. my health is precarious & i really need a break. eh. hard for me to even write.i love LA more than anything in this world. le sigh.
got a snarky email today & thought it is soooooo hilarious how everybody thinks that i owe them something. i don't owe anybody anything (especially people who i changed their shitty diapers while their mom was out eating pussy!!!!). people should be really thankful that i take my meds everyday. life is too short for such immature actions. lmfao
i found a new Kendoll. we'll see how well this one turns out. the last one was a complete waste of my time(though he did buy me 2 Calvin Klein evening dresses).
i like the fact that my blog is mostly about boys. there is nothing more exciting, i think
finally read "My Year of Yes" by Maria Headley. really funny, though Maria sounds like a whooooore....
now reading "The Danish Girl" which will soon be a Nicole Kidman movie. truly bizarre, though i cannot put it down.
tomorrow is a fashion show(whatever). ran into Robert & Roxanne. he was cradling her chins in his hand, trying to protect her from me(as if i cared). i just kept walking. they were never on my radar....
9/26/09
powertrippin'
life has been terribly disappointing lately. lot's o' powertripping by the hungry & thirsty losers among us. i try to ignore it all.i am above such pettiness & know that i am still on the right path
finally got some more meds & y'know that prozac is one hell of a drug!
saw Tran today & it made me even more sad.he welcomed me into his world & once i got comfortable, started to push me away. not mad, just disappointed in life(not him becasue he is, alas, only a child).
my birthday is tomorrow & that made me cry a little this afternoon. no party like i wanted, though a few unknown admirers sent gift certificates. i bought a nice hat & a vintage swimsuit to celebrate.i wish i had something more uplifting to say, but i don't
been thinking of my Elvis, of M, of Robert. i definitely need a consort
finally got some more meds & y'know that prozac is one hell of a drug!
saw Tran today & it made me even more sad.he welcomed me into his world & once i got comfortable, started to push me away. not mad, just disappointed in life(not him becasue he is, alas, only a child).
my birthday is tomorrow & that made me cry a little this afternoon. no party like i wanted, though a few unknown admirers sent gift certificates. i bought a nice hat & a vintage swimsuit to celebrate.i wish i had something more uplifting to say, but i don't
been thinking of my Elvis, of M, of Robert. i definitely need a consort
9/4/09
Pumpkin + The D
just finished a new Canadian reality show with Pumkin aka Brooke from "Flavor of Love". quite a boring shoot but she is very fun. lots of manufactured drama. don't know if i want to reveal the show name(i don't get paid more whether you know or not). lmfao
will be spending the holiday with Tran & feeling much happier knowing that.don't forget to remind me to pick up more prozac
your bff in Christ,
The D
will be spending the holiday with Tran & feeling much happier knowing that.don't forget to remind me to pick up more prozac
your bff in Christ,
The D
8/25/09
tonight!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh
i feel like i'm going to be VERY naughty tonight. invited to 6 parties but i really only have time for 1
will be bringing Tran along(if he has the balls)
bought a $3 black velvet 1950s cocktail dress an hour ago that i will wear. it is STUNNING!!!!!!! fits like a dream(1950s size 13, thank you very much).quite excited about putting it on again. makes me feel like a total drag queen(in a good way). some jackass stole my last 2 purchases, an aqua silk gown & a blue tweed Jackie O suit. quite devastated but i could wear this new dress 24 hours a day
sorry about the rambling, just WAAAAYYYYYY too excited
hopefully Tran will bring party favors(or even know what "party favors" are)
life lately has been beyond complicated but trying to be a good little girl
i feel like Bette Davis today
i feel like i'm going to be VERY naughty tonight. invited to 6 parties but i really only have time for 1
will be bringing Tran along(if he has the balls)
bought a $3 black velvet 1950s cocktail dress an hour ago that i will wear. it is STUNNING!!!!!!! fits like a dream(1950s size 13, thank you very much).quite excited about putting it on again. makes me feel like a total drag queen(in a good way). some jackass stole my last 2 purchases, an aqua silk gown & a blue tweed Jackie O suit. quite devastated but i could wear this new dress 24 hours a day
sorry about the rambling, just WAAAAYYYYYY too excited
hopefully Tran will bring party favors(or even know what "party favors" are)
life lately has been beyond complicated but trying to be a good little girl
i feel like Bette Davis today
8/24/09
my blog
still working on this blog,some of the dates/posts are still fucked up(as you can tell). me lazy
sowwwwwy
will fix once inebriated
sowwwwwy
will fix once inebriated
6/18/09
i is famous now
funny how i never know i'm famous until OTHER people point it out to me
as if it matters
googled my name for the 2nd time
i love to find "true" stories about my past (either made up lies or stuff that i've already said here, better). like people trying to guess what is the real Dallas. guess what? everything you need to know will be right here. when you need to know it.
eh
not bitter, though. "Prozac is one hell of a drug", says Dallas.
about to go to In n Out so ya know i ain't angry!
ran into Russell Brand again. we had a little naughty chat (i'll save that for my dear diary). he is a MAJOR hottie & i cannot wait for his new "Rockstar" movie to come out. i will also stan for "Bruno" cause you know he gets sh*t done.
met the new James Dean (le sigh). why are boys always my downfall? i cannot resist & i fell head over heels in one hour. he looks like the negative version of my dad (the same exact features except Jamie has grey eyes & sandy hair). lordy lord lord. pray for me!!!!!!!!!
i love it how some people around me were all like super VIP status/A list (in their mind). bwaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaa ha ha ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!! n!gga!!!!! lmfao. still not conceited, just convinced
thank you for your time
your bff in the father, son, AND the holy ghost,
Dallas Monroe Harrison Havisham the 1st
as if it matters
googled my name for the 2nd time
i love to find "true" stories about my past (either made up lies or stuff that i've already said here, better). like people trying to guess what is the real Dallas. guess what? everything you need to know will be right here. when you need to know it.
eh
not bitter, though. "Prozac is one hell of a drug", says Dallas.
about to go to In n Out so ya know i ain't angry!
ran into Russell Brand again. we had a little naughty chat (i'll save that for my dear diary). he is a MAJOR hottie & i cannot wait for his new "Rockstar" movie to come out. i will also stan for "Bruno" cause you know he gets sh*t done.
met the new James Dean (le sigh). why are boys always my downfall? i cannot resist & i fell head over heels in one hour. he looks like the negative version of my dad (the same exact features except Jamie has grey eyes & sandy hair). lordy lord lord. pray for me!!!!!!!!!
i love it how some people around me were all like super VIP status/A list (in their mind). bwaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaa ha ha ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!! n!gga!!!!! lmfao. still not conceited, just convinced
thank you for your time
your bff in the father, son, AND the holy ghost,
Dallas Monroe Harrison Havisham the 1st
8/30/07
i am NOT famous
oy. this has been a very weird month for me. i get a lot of love from strangers on the street. it's nice but my goal was never to be famous. my goal was to be a rich, successful, & happy actress. i have the fame, now all i want is the rest.
it's flattering to hear that someone wants my autograph but it is still freaky to me(freaky bad, not freaky ex boyfriend good).
i am not famous. i am not a celebrity & i do not see myself signing autographs ever. yeah, i know i'm being a bit Kurt Cobain now (i've never mentioned acting as "my craft" so there still is hope yet of me becoming normal). i don't know if i'm even explaining this in the right way. i haven't slept for 2 days (working working working).
i'll finish this rant later
it's flattering to hear that someone wants my autograph but it is still freaky to me(freaky bad, not freaky ex boyfriend good).
i am not famous. i am not a celebrity & i do not see myself signing autographs ever. yeah, i know i'm being a bit Kurt Cobain now (i've never mentioned acting as "my craft" so there still is hope yet of me becoming normal). i don't know if i'm even explaining this in the right way. i haven't slept for 2 days (working working working).
i'll finish this rant later
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