more proof that hollywood is run by morons

I get a call asking me if I can audition tomorrow. i say no, that I am filming tomorrow but I can come another day.the casting director says "fine. what is your email address?" 10 minutes later,i get an email asking me what time can I come tomorrow for the audition.again,i say that I am already filming but can come another day.the casting director says no,that is the only day/time. wtf?

Dear Aldous,

I called you because I'm drunk,not because I like you.

Your bff in Christ,
The D

the "boyfriend"

we met last week & you told everyone that you loved me.i cried while you smoked meth.i never heard from you again. i called you last night with no answer. today you almost ran me over in hollywood.is this life?

aldous snow

from the moment i saw him, it was instant attraction. he was not the most handsome man i'd ever met, but he was incredibly sexy. i could not put my finger on it. he was an asshole, a horrible person, inconsiderate, rude, annoying yet i kept coming back.

now i realize that it was because he looked just like my crush, david lochary.funny how life is.it really had nothing to do with aldous as a person & more to do with the fact that i wanted to fuck david.lol. so i guess he really has nothing to feel special about. of course, i never debased myself with aldous(praise be to allah). i wouldve loved to close my eyes & dream of mr lochary.oh well.

crabs in a barrel

one of my neighbors was calling out for her 2 children. what were their names, you may ask: shania & omarion(of course).i started laughing until i realized that those poor children would be raised by a woman who thought naming them shania & omarion was a good idea.

i moved here from beverly hills but it might as well have been from mars.the amount of ignorance & inconsiderate behavior is amazing.i almost feel like it was a vacation from reality. realtors would always ask if i were sure that i wanted to live in a home in this area.i would say "i am not afraid of negroes". i grew up in the ghetto, the worst projects in houston.i know what it is like to starve, i also know what it is like to stay in a $700 a night hotel room & hang out with the president.i decided to move here to save $$$ for another london vacay.no big deal(until it was).

i wont go into the details, does not really matter.i tried to help.i tried to do good in this neighborhood that has been forgotten by most.it will be gentrified soon enough.white faces are popping up more & more & where will the shanias & omarions go next?

of course, this would be a perfect time to explain why it is so stupid to give a child a horrible name but it is almost my bedtime.i will say that freakonomics is an amazing book that explains why abortion lowers the crime rates and why shaniquas will be the last hired.


i just cant with black people any more.i have tried & tried & they keep on disappointing me. why can't black men take care of their own? why do black women continue to have kids with men who don't want them? at this point, a normal blog would have a joke saying that now i will check asian on my government forms or something but i am not kidding.it makes me sick to  my stomach when i see a person proud of their ignorance, wearing it like some kind of badge of honor.

i am moving back to 90210, london trip be damned & signing the lease tomorrow afternoon. merry christmas to me, huh?

Sharmeka Moffitt is a moron

use google if you must, i am really not about to rewrite her story.

anyhoo, when i first read the articles, i thought "sounds like she did it". now turns out, she was the one who set herself on fire. :-(

heres the deal,though.there is still kkk in the south(i hung out with them years ago while in tx).i'm sure there are klan members settings black people on fire & vandalizing their cars.i just never believed that SHE was one of them.

it's one of those situations that makes me mad at black people.now because of her dumbass, racists will think that ALL black people are like her. eh

i would not be sad if she died.it would be very "survival of the fittest". does she have children?why ? the whole thing just boggles the mind

los angeles fashion week :-(

ok, so i used to love la fashion week.i would wait all year round for it & plan my outfits like crazy.it was my reason for being.

now.....

not so much


we are in the middle(?) of fashion week & i am all "whatevs". the shows have been great, dont get me wrong , but the planning/execution is TERRIBLE!!!! oh how i miss mercedes benz/smashbox fashion week.

eh

back in MY day(lol) people like me did not have to wait in line for an hour waiting to be let in while watching others cut the line. back in MY day gift bags were for vips, not whoever was first upstairs.

:-(

so disappointed but at least there have been no swimsuit,tee shirt, or lingerie fashion shows(thank the lord). tonight i will listen to led zepplin, try to absorb all this cheap champagne from the show, & remember the good old days.this would be the perfect time to insert my acid washed dress picture @ the last official la fashion week but, alas i am too drunk and/or lazy.

just some food for thought


your bff in christ,
the d

ps: the world of wonder reality tv show will not be happening because the casting director hates me.lol


pps:i see they are iso seatfiller for the jody watley/jon secada muscial "Loving the Silent
Tears". how incredibly sad! they cant even GIVE those tickets away....

tonight, tonight

spent tonight listening to the raveonettes play acoustically.pretty cool & sharon is so cute. made a fool of myself with sune & a friend embarrassed me in front of nic harcourt(which is pretty hard because i NEVER get embarrassed). :-(

i should be asleep now but i am so wired!
:-( :-( :-(

i must wake up really early.

anyhoo, so men are weird(though predictable). i was with a man who loves me but knows that i will never ever have sex with him.he gets sort of pissy & tries to cockblock when i am around men that i would actually date.very sad stuff & so middle school.he is damn near 40 & still playing games.i really need a boyfriend,my last relationship was with elvis & we all know that was 700 years ago. i am not desperate, no craigslist nsa ads being planned but celibacy is getting old.

i went to the party & i felt so out of place(i usually am but this time that i actually FELT it). was introduced to the girl from "argo"(notice how i cant be bothered with googling or remembering her name).she was cute but i was not impressed. she was humble(fake? "hollywood humble"? idk).i could not be that.just not in me.she was dressed like an "in living color" reject, i felt sorry for her like i do most hipsters.


still talking to world of wonder about the new reality show.just another pain in my ass.

doctors say that my cancer might be back(yay?)

world of wonder(or not)

in talks with world of wonder(y'know the people who make "rupaul's drag race" & the tammy faye movie) about doing a new reality tv show.not too excited, though. been talking for years & still no $$$$$. :-(

eh

plus they had phoebe price on "drag race" but not moi(i mean WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS THAT?). anyways....

still debating if i want to include my old reality tv friends in this deal. these are "hollywood friends" not the real kind, so i don't know if i want to help.i go out of my way for people & get not even a "thank you" in return. really tired of assholes in my life. of course, i am not supposed to talk about any of this, very top secret & i will be sued for a million dollars blahblahblah. i say, if any lawyer can find my milly, it is all yours. for realz.

i have almost given up on an acting career.still hungry but not hungry enough to sell my body or my soul.

i clocked his T

i woke up at 4AM to get to set this morning on a new matchmaker reality tv show(those of you who watch tv would know the matchmakers).anyhoo, so i was promised A but when i get there, it turns out to be Z. there are PLENTY of people who love Z, so really no need to lie. that was their first mistake.

all the girls are sitting around waiting for hours, when a final girl shows up right before we start filming. she is in white tights, perfect hair,paper white thick foundation makeup(very kabuki & the kind trannies use to cover their beard), she is about 5'2.i look down at the hands & they are massive, thick broad fingers, short nails with dirt under them.

ok

i know the T

3 minutes after we start filming i figure it all out & say it. this drag queen is the man the matchmaker is about to set one of us up with. a crew guys runs out & escorts me off set, Dallas is never to be seen again. 3 minutes of work, though i did get paid handsomely for showing up.

shit like this is REALLY making me tired of reality shows. you call it reality but get scared when i get real. you want me to act,play out your little script. you lie to me constantly, not trusting me with the truth.maybe i DON'T want to be in that kind of situation.maybe i DON'T want to be embarrassed or humiliated for your enjoyment. i showed up to have a good time, not to be made fun of, assholes.


plus i thought it was hilarious that they thought no one would get it(actually not so funny because those girls were such morons). yes, i did not grow up in europe, or went to harvard, or know 7 different languages but i DO know a dude in a dress when i see it.

all
day
long

miasma

life is very complicated right now & i probably will not be posting as much fuckery as i used to.

sort of had a love at first sight thing with a guy lately & i could not quite figure out why. yes was cute but not the most handsome guy i had ever seen.then it hit me, the guy looks just like my ex Elvis. :-( now i dont even know if i want to go there. it's like he will shadow everything that we do together.i dont want elvis to determine how i feel about this new man.

 i've been skipping a lot of parties recently. am i getting old?lol. i dont even feel like putting on inappropriate evening wear(so you KNOW something is wrong).i am changing & i dont think i like what i am changing into. i used to funnel all of this into my diary but now that is what i use this blog for. i feel like it is time to go old school, get back to pen & paper. i am not abandoning "glitter of hollywood" but it really serves no purpose & i am not one to waste time. this isnt a goodbye, more of a "smell you later".

 your bff in christ,
 the d

this has gone TOO far, i tell you!

lana del rey with marilyn manson.


at first i was upset, but now i am LIVID

lana del taco with my future ex husband axl rose

why is she doing this to meeeeeeee? isnt having daddy buy you a record deal & being a horrible faux hipster singer enough? :-(

i need a nap now.

happy valentine's day!

i am celebrating valentine's day by going to get some xrays. my doctor says that my cancer might be back :-(

did a little audrey hepburn realness yesterday with a 1960s coat & black velvet pants. saw an ex but couldnt remember his name so i ignored him, then came back home to watch "charade".

so it stars miss hepburn & cary grant(yum yum), its full of action & lots of twists, spies, plus murder. the costumes were gorgeous & made by givenchy. i should have liked it but i hated  that in some scenes cary had to be the bad guy. cary grant is too gorgeous & funny to be evil. ever. just pissed me off.lol

totally forgot that i had an invitation to drake's grammy party @ the playboy mansion.....eh

so many shows, so little time

i literally barely have time to sleep for the next month. it is KILLING me, so many appointments. had to cancel a couple of auditions(which i never do) & a nationwide beer commercial. funny because i have never had so many casting directors calling me for jobs. when i had nothing to do, they didnt even notice i had a number. now, they are blowing up my phone & i cannot even deal with it. so stressed out :-(

it is not a good look

was walking by a couple of teenagers & one said "i'd smash".lmfao. i thought that was funny. as if. i didnt even fuck teens when i was a teen. a boy can dream though....

mdna

so madonna's new song sucks. too lazy to even post the video.her body looks amazing, though. mia & minaj can suck a few dicks....

some posters said that madonna tried to channel marilyn monroe in the video.i say she is more carol channing instead....

of course, i will not be watching the super bowl but i hope she puts on a great performance(& does NOT sing her latest single). ick.

went up to the vh1 offices today about a new reality show. i am not holding my breath, i know they are still obsessed with paying $100 a day(& y'know the d does not get out of bed for $100 a day.lol). too many things going on this week. terribly busy with auditions & additional fuckery.

the riches

"the riches" is a show about a family of travelers aka gypsies who move into a dead mans house & pretend to be a wealthy family. it stars eddie izzard & minnie driver. i think the premise is amazing, the show is very smart, entertaining, & funny. almost through with the 1st season & only have 1 problem with it. i was enjoying it a lot until they introduced the 1st black female character.

1 she is fat, ghetto, & butt ugly
2 she just got out of jail
3 she is psycho
4 she is a drug addict

eh

really almost disappointed. for real? that's the best we can do, huh? no sexy, smart, sophisticated clair huxtable type. noooooooooo. we have to create latonya jenkins from compton who loves to stab people :-(

i am debating whether or not i even want to continue watching this show

eva mendes better back away from my man!

so i read somewhere that ryan gosling wants to marry eva mendes & she's all "i can do better".

oh honey no!

i knew there was a reason why i wanted to punch her in the face when we did that music video together. i couldnt quite put my finger on the why, though....

anyhoo

ryan gosling is hothothot & eva is a fool if this is true(it is not, though). i dont believe any of the rumors going around about them. yes, i believe that they are fucking. are they a real couple? no. will they get married? no

they will fuck until it no longer gets them press & then they will split up. ryan is not in love with eva. end of story.

yesss!!!!

3rd degree burn

i got an email on a dating website from a man which was pretty rude. something about since i was named Dallas that i filmed in the valley(ie i was a pornstar), etc.i wont go into details but my reply was a 3rd degree burn. so much so that even HE had to admit i scorched his ass.

i just do not understand people. no need for so much ignorance & why all the hate? he was a good looking guy & if he'd have a change of attitude would not even need to be online iso someone to love him. oh well. he will never learn & will soon be an old, bitter man.

the angry black woman myth

Abstract:

Research on anger in African American females is lacking yet extremely important. The stereotype of the "angry black woman" has dominated society's view of African American females; however, empirical evidence supporting the stereotype is nonexistent. In an effort to empirically test the misperception of African American women as overly angry or aggressive, this project explored the experience of anger in seventy-six African American women and compared it to a reference group (i.e., the normative sample of the measure used). Participants completed the State Trait Anger Expression Inventory-2 (STAXI-2). On most of the scales of anger of the STAXI-2, there were no significant differences between the current sample and the normative sample. Notably contrary to the widespread image, African American women in both age groups reported significantly less frequent angry feelings in situations where they may receive criticism, perceived disrespect, and negative evaluations (i.e., angry reaction). Furthermore, younger women reported a greater tendency to experience and suppress intense angry feelings rather than expressing them either physically or verbally. Summarily, results of the current study provide initial empirical evidence disconfirming the stereotype of the "angry black woman."


 J. Celeste Walley-Jean
Debunking the Myth of the "Angry Black Woman": An Exploration of Anger in Young African American Women
Black Women, Gender & Families - Volume 3, Number 2, Fall 2009, pp. 68-86

earthquake!!!

there was an earthquake a couple of minutes ago. very thankful i am still awake because that was pretty scary. i doubt if i will ever sleep tonight :-(