The Sunset Strip Music Festival

i started the SSMF at the Standard Hotel & got a lovely hug from Lou Adler (sweet!). got nice & wasted on the champagne then made it rain near the pool.

Bob Guinney from "The Bachelorette" was there(yawn) & the punk hottie who won "Hell's Kitchen" a couple of years ago was the chef. yes, i AM too lazy to look up his name but he was the skinny white guy with the chopped up side mullet....

walked my drunk @ss to the House of Blues. we went inside the exclusive Foundation Room (where murder victim Lana Clarkson was the hostess). F asked if i was excited to be there. i replied "No & it's always a shame when I am the most famous person in the room."

we talked to Dilated Peoples for a sec in their dressing room, then headed to the Viper Room to check out Juliette Lewis

the crowd was completely hammered by the time Juliette & the Licks started playing. Craig the guitarist is a stone cold fox plus the only reason why i did not leave early.of course the tallest guy in there was the drunkest & kept starting fights with smaller guys behind him. eh

then some lesbian midget decided that she was going to get crunk

eh

Juliette is the female Iggy Pop. an amazing front woman & fine actress. "Romeo is Dead" is one of her best movies. that being said, i was quite disappointed in the show. i ended up yawning a couple of times. her outfit was bland. i've seen PLENTY of pix of them touring & she always had some sort of "HOcahontas"/ Wonder Woman spandex ensemble so i am confused as to why she would decide to wear a grey tank top with black pants. whatever

the music was nothing special as well. yeah, the crowd was filled with fans singing every word & dancing their non-@sses off, but it just all fell flat to me. she has the potential to be bigger than this, almost a mini Joan Jett(which is the greatest compliment you can give to a female rockstar).

left there & we walked to the Whisky a GoGo to catch B Real from Cypress Hill & Slash from Guns N Roses. instead i stood out front on the phone for 2 hours waiting for it to end.

of course, i totally forgot that i told Jason Miller(the lead singer of Godhead) that i would check out their concert. i know they live in LA, plus i'm pretty sure that it will not be the last of Godhead.

i get home around 3am & get a call from M inviting me to "hang" at his house. i agree though i've just taken 4 sleeping pills

we arrive & go to bed immediately.by this time i am drunk & flying high from the pills but sleep is far from my mind

his clothes come off first(of course). i always feel like a child molester when i am around him. he is older than i but he has all the innocence that i NEVER had.

we talk & he says "Dallas, i can always count on you to disappoint".

we are naked in bed together staring at the ceiling. 2 grown people, awkward even though i have know him for years.

i disappoint him because i am still the same person i have always been. content in who i am with enough self esteem not to change so that he can "love" me.

by now, he has made me sober.we kiss & it is like kissing a doll.i am doing things because he is there, not because i even WANT to. i finally figure out that i am over him. completely. i say i am going to sleep. he is still hard but i am done

no more thinking about our child Libertie, no more crying, worries, schemes,4 am text messages, or "hanging out" nude

he can give his hard on to Jesus, now

i get home(again) at 11am & FINALLY(!) get to sleep.

i wake up around 4pm & head off to the Camp Freddy show. Donovan Leitch is the lead singer (le sigh), special guests were Billy Morrison from The Cult, Matt Sorum of Velvet Revolver + Guns N Roses, & Billy Duffy from The Cult. the paparazzi lied & said that Billy Idol would be the secret guest. totally disappointed that i did not get to rub The Idol. sorry i missed Mickey Avalon but oh well. totally drained from all the drama. fer sure.

a young latino called me a n*gger when i did not want to buy his bootleg passes. plus some homeless black man was offended when i did not want to sit by him. he stank to high heaven, moldy, very NAST! he said that i was "acting white" because i did not want to inhale his funk.

ah.....

just still amazes me how ignorant people are